And some news I've had a hard time dealing with, let alone put into words... As some of you reading this may know, my kennel suffered a devastating loss October 28th with the loss of my girl Lexi. It was a huge personal blow and the past couple months have been an incredibly rough ride. Lexi was somewhat of an incorrigible "puppy" but matured into a dream "dog" whom I adored and loved deeply. When I decided to return to the breed, Lex was my first. She was my "everything" dog. She, early on as a young pup, was the one who reminded me the reasons I so love the breed. She was my bed dog, my farm dog and my reader of the mind dog. Lexi was my solid as a rock dog and it was heart wrenching to watch her energy and spirit fade in front of me and know there was nothing I could do. There was a trial of fluids to flush her system and her Vet who upon first seeing her said, "I wouldn't give up without trying". But while she continued on with her job that couldn't wait, I think the realization hit her. A realization I knew well in advance, simply by watching Lex throughout the course of the afternoon. Since my loss, I've found it very difficult to visit my website. And out of respect for Lexi, I'm feeling guilty for not updating in a timely fashion. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of her and there is not a day that goes by that I don't think about the unfinished business left to do. But where to start....? there is simply so much to do and much of what needs doing will be extremely painful. Each page needs to be looked at and updated where appropriate. I need to remove some entries and rearrange others. The first month, when I'd think of writing a memorial or tribute, I literally couldn't see through the tears nor could I speak of Lex without sobbing. I've got a couple months of healing behind me now, have gained back some strength and I think I'm nearly ready to write her tribute and face the task, way earlier than I ever expected, of creating a memorial page. In gaining the ability to believe I can tackle these things, I feel like I'm finally entering the healing phase. While I work on things, Lexi's page may be hidden for a time but it will be here... always. GMBD's began with Lexi and Lex will forever be a part of it. More importantly, she will always hold a very special spot in my heart.